Destiny, Sound Sculptress: Destiny Diary

complete
it is
finished
the
insanity
of
hoping
wishing
for
a different
outcome
of a
motive
idea
already
set in
place
not about
you/me
at all
let
it
go
be
complete
move
forward
not meant
to harm
not
personal
attitude
behavior
not
about you
let
it
go
mov-ing
forward
freeing
self
liberation
forgiveness
who?
self
be
complete
move
forward
now

~
d

i
am
a
self
fulfilling
prophesy.
i
call
myself
into
existence.
i
am
the caretaker
of
my own
reality
i
am
the
steward
of
my
creation
my
word
is
a
self
ful-filling
law
made
manifest
instantly

d.

i say no
to poor treatment
no
to mismanagement
no
to mediocracy
no
unprofessional behavior
no
to un kept promises
no
procrastination
no
to mistreatment
no
to mis aligned words/ works
no
to doin just 'enough to get by'
no
unsavory commentary
no
to not MANNIN or WOMANIN UP!
why?
Because
I
KNOW
who
I am
and
do NOT
apologies
or
compromise MY self fulfilling knowingness
NOT an option.


d.

rite of passage.
today--stepping into completed self awareness
self acknowledgment
self acceptance
self determining
self defining
no apologies
in complete recognition
and acceptance of others
as they choose to be
and yet moving forward
without blame
doubt
or criticism
forward
into
me

~~~
d

SOOOOOOOOOO much happening GOOD
at once!
Staying
faithful.
Staying
Focused.
Staying
functional.
all
good.

Peace
d

closer.
voice of the past(?)
repeats a memory
i don't remember.
peaceful/
observation/
eyes lower/
are lies being told from this past
about me?
the mouth speaks
no intelligence uttered
should i
be-lieve ? it?
no

d

WOW~ The Bruce Latimer Show was WAY AWESOME!! Larry Vann (Drums) & Haruwn (Upright Bass) were SUPERB!!! We had major fun and got GREAT footage!! AND Bruce called to THANK US for being on his show! (talk about class & grace!)

D

i feel a change taking place-- no turning back. forward/ onward.

d

the success of my tomorrows is determined by my focus in today.

spirit. sound. silence. and opportunity to renew.restore.replenish spirit/ incredible day with folk really get what they need to continue the work they are destined to do. wonderful.

d

'I am not the artist. I AM the Art'

Dorothy Ashby THE Jazz Harpist!!
I am celebrating her birthday honoring her fantastic musical legacy!!

use struggle as a catalyst for creativity.

d

Today, we went to Love Center Ministries to pay our respects for the life
Bishop Walter Hawkins. Although services are scheduled for Tuesday (musical tribute) and Wednesday (homegoing service) we really wanted to be in the space where Bishop would serve through sound on sunday (sounds like a song) a full house in FULL PRAISE!

d

eight minutes. 8.minutes. in eight/ 8 minutes with metal mega birds hovering in the already hot/heavy eair. 8/eight/ ate minutes. a verse/ verdict will pronounce life/unlife in the city of angels/ dictating the experience for the next year of all in the city of oaktrees. 8/eight/ate/ minutes. citybldings shut out/shutdown/ what'shappenning/ what are the THEY going to do if the word spoken is ......SHOT/SHUT DOWN NOW/ in eaight/8/ ate minutes. alarms screeming fear ole/new/ wanna be cars/bikes feet flee the town NOW! NOW eight/7/six/5/ four/3/ two/ one/ none standing......

Q: Is the 'A Game' a lifestyle or a part-time job? (news at eleven)

d

couple of days ago-- i posted on fb 'mediocracy or master' and i got an INSTANT answer day after-- working with OPC Orchestra as Principal Harpist/ i had the opportunity to GET IT RIGHT AND KEEP IT TIGHT! No off chords funky pedal changes/ work it out and keep it solid.

d

Metronome Metaphysics: slow down to speed up!

it's june and i have a slew of private dates. no website postings until july. not lagging/ keeping it real. gotta wait/ sometimes waiting is good.

peace
d

i. remember. sometimes remembering brings bitterness and not the redemption or relief i had hoped for. i. remember. a yesterday/yesterway of plans with no follow thru and promises of better moments to come. was it a lie? i. remember. telling the truth may cause the deaf ear to open the heart to weep blood. i. remember. wishing wanting hoping for something/someone/something to save me from a painful hatefilled experience called home? i. remember. i am my own sactuary/savior/ hero/ friend/beloved. i. remember. i am the one i have waited for.

today, a wonderful collaborator gave us roses from her garden. confirmed for me: the rose has thorns to protect itself.


d

a day at the doctor. need some fine tuning and probably a few dietary changes (the scale read BIGGER than i did (lol!))i feel good/ and very grateful.

d

Today-- a full collaboration program at a local school. Collaboration of Visual and Sonic Art with 3rd grade students. An enlightening experience for me..... looking forward to this opportunity again. I learned so much from the students....

Marva.
Short feisty Louisiana sista.Deep chocolate brown. Migrated to California to visit her Daddy's dream of a better life. One of 12 she dreamed a dream of a better life a wish of greater things to come for herself and later her 3 little girls.
Marva.
She'd cook up a pot of grits and stir in a can of clam chowder (Snow's Clam Chowder) and make meal so tasty and filling! Welfare never stole her creative spirit. She'd make beautiful dresses and fabric imagery without a pattern that stunned onlookers. She'd make beautiful black baby dolls that in retrospect look like Orisha babies.
Marva.
2 headed lady. She'd throw 3 coins and read the mysterious message they held for tearful woman wanting to know if her lover was true or the mischievious business man curiously cautious about his offshore business dealings.
Marva.
Threaten a man with death for looking at her three pretty daughters, jotting down the license plate numbers of their dates just in case she had to hunt them down and put a little sugar in that man's gas tank.
Marva.
Lived. Laughed. Cried. Died. Resurrected. Transformed.
I love you Mommy.

Home. Today. Shared music for a really amazing family tradition celebration. Cousin Tarika was there showing OUT on that cool blue violin. A magic day. Everyone was truly appreciating the music and an invitation to a local festival was extended to us. Two choreographer were dancing in a state of visual collaboration for the our collective participation in the festival. today felt good.

home. yesterday. A delicious dinner of food from a far off land. A new friend tells of his journey of 10,000miles to America. An arduous journey with friends/family lost some found. Freedom at a price. Life restore. His eyes reveal a spirit in peaceful rebellion. His mission: helping those who cannot help themselves in the wealthiest country in the world.

Home. listening to keith jarret play a haunting 'over the rainbow' before i prepare to give thanks for for simply being.

and you???